Four of the Canary Castle's current residents have been hanging out productively lately. That's 100%, and I think the house has finally (after 10 months) reached a certain level of stability.
Three of us were watching some quality TV the other day and all of us were excited to see Jon Stewart's appearance on Sit Down Comedy with David Steinberg. I think our initial suspicions of "hackiness" for Steinberg was relieved when his interview style came forth. It was really a brilliant and useful conversatin to witness.
One of the many memorable moments came when Stewart discussed a moment in his standup career when he became self-aware of his abilities to either craft (he compared it to woodworking) a joke, and the alternative strategy to trust his instincts. He went on to describe it as a sort of disassociation with the audience acknowledging that his internal sense of performance and quality became more important.
Not to go back in time and beat a dead shark, but it is this idea of individualism that currently has me wrapped up in comedic self-analyzation. You know if you are funny or not, and at a certain point it becomes fruitless to rely on feedback from others to justify what you are doing. It is more important to develop an internal goal and stick to your guns. The audience will either get it or not.
To take the point one step further, friend and guru Asaf Ronen said to our company, "Don't worry about the things you can't control." Originally, this advice applied to the dynamics of a theater company's existence within itself, but along with Stewart's comments, I am beginning to see a theme regarding the ideas of control and performance, and how the two play into each other.
Losing control can be helpful. Understanding where it is appropriate to exert control (and in doing so defining where it is most effective and beneficial) can be mind-expanding.