It is an odd feeling being pushed away. And today, in central North Carolina, more people are experiencing that feeling than on most days. It is raining on top of an unimpressive layer of snow and ice that was delivered overnight, pushing people indoors. I sit here, in a smoky coffee shop in Raleigh and can almost here the Romantics discussing the poetry of a vast space covered by the uniqueness of snow flakes and the subsequent need to hold a lover close. Sure, the romanticism of a fire reflected in the blue eyes of the person you love the most is an amazing thought, but simultaneously I am thinking of these things with a realization that life is about more than romance and joy. Life is equally about pain and self-inflicted struggles.
So, knowing that the next few months can bring me both joy and pain is simply a realization that I am going to be living. I will be living for others, certainly, but mostly, I will be living for myself.
There are inevitabilities that I wish I could change, but I cannot. What I can do, is go after the things that make me happy and hold those things that bring me down close to my heart.
Hi Jason! Just stopped in to see how things are going with you and to say that it also snowed in Malibu. Aren't you thrilled?! Keep warm and say Hi to State from me!
Posted by: Girl from one of your classes | January 18, 2007 at 01:15 PM